I AM CANCER FREE!

Just realized that I have not been here in almost 3 months! So sorry!

Life is happening and we are a busy family :)

Here I am today happy, healthy and CURED! 

I am thrilled to be able to say that I AM CANCER FREE!! I kicked cancers ass!!!

I could not have done it without the wonderful support from my amazing husband and son. I also have many

amazing friends and family members who were here for me when I needed them most. 

I have 11 treatments down and only 1 to go! This month I will be celebrating my 27th birthday just 2 days after

my last and final chemo treatment. I can't wait to live my "normal" life again! The things I won't have to worry

about amaze me. I can have caffeine anytime I want. I can drink some ice cold beers anytime. I don't have to worry about being around 2nd hand smoke in a bar. One of the first things I plan to do 

is head to our local bar and eat some wings for WING NIGHT! Boy have

I missed these delicious wings and the atmosphere of a small hole in the wall bar.

I can not wait to LAY IN THE BEAUTIFUL SUN!!!! My pasty skin is yelling at me to get out there

but instead I listen to the orders of my oncologist who insists I may burn too easily. I also finally have some very fine peach fuzz growing back! My goal is at least to have a bob of my own by my the time of my 

sisters wedding next September. Rocking wigs is fun but can be such a pain in the ass!

I'd like to take this opportunity to thank all of you (YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE) for the support and help.

To my husband, without you I'd probably not be doing well at all right now. Thank you for sticking by me through sickness and health like you vowed to do. To my awesome daddy for being her for me when I couldn't keep my eyes open to take care of Vinny. When I just needed someone to talk to and not be judged. To my brother for not picking on me as much but still enough to let me know that he really does care and loves me. Without you I wouldn't be as tough as I claim to be. You are a jerk but I love ya :) 

To my sisters, who are ALWAYS here for me through everything in my life. To help take care of Vinny or just listen to me when I need a cry. Thank you for bringing those gorgeous kiddos to see me and put a smile on my face.  Thank you for just being yourselves and for all of your amazing support. To my sister in law who has checked in on me pretty much every single day since starting my treatment. For taking time out of her life to help with Vinny. For her support and love.To my in laws for bringing Jason and I dinner every Wednesday and spending time with Vinny.

To my husbands co workers for rearranging their lives at times to enable Jas to spend as much time with me as he needed to do. It is VERY MUCH appreciated.  To my extended family for the support and love!

Finally to a wonderful woman whom I met all because of stupid cancer. 

Rebecca Casciato, you have shown me that I am one tough mama! That I was going to have no problems kicking this cancers ass and doing it in style :) 

Thank you so much for your wonderful advice and answering all of my crazy questions at all hours of the day. Thank you for the meals, snacks, visits and everything else you did for me! 

I am honored to have a wonderful woman like you in my life.  I will be forever grateful for everything you have done for me. Can't wait to celebrate our lives together next month for my survival party! You are an amazing woman! Thank you!!!!!

One more thing before I go....

FUCK CANCER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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HALF WAY!!!

Today it has been 4 days since my last treatment. Up until yesterday I was dragging some ass. These treatments are starting to get a little more tough each time. I am strong and I will fight through. It is just hard for me to be the one laying around not doing much of anything. I'm the one that loves to be out and about. Always going somewhere or doing something. So these few days that I'm down are a whole new world for me. I have great help and support from my awesome Hubby. Thankful for my dad this week for coming over to help out with Vinny so I could lay down and just veg out. LOVE YOU GUYS!

Tonight I will not be able to sleep. We leave at 3:30am to head to the airport for our cruise! I CAN'T WAIT!!! Although it is our first cruise ever and I'm not sure what to expect, it will be wonderful to just get away. It is perfect timing. Half way through treatments and a relaxing break is much needed. It is wonderful that we will basically get a 2nd try at our honeymoon since we were in a hurricane when we went the 1st time. The best part is that IT IS ALL EXPENSES PAID FOR BY BROOKSTONE!!! We don't have to spend a penny....unless we want to on extras. Our plan is to take a 3 hour ATV Tour thru the Mayan ruins, through some cool caverns and on the beach. I'm most excited to just GET AWAY!!!  I will miss my littler guy more than anything in the world but he too is getting a nice break. NO THERAPY all week long and he'll get to hang out at home or wherever Grammy and Grandpa decide to venture to with him. He will greatly enjoy this week of FREE PLAY! 

Here's to hoping we have some marvelous weather, spectacular food and great company in each other. I think its about time for us and we deserve it :) 

Happy Valentines Day

I wouldn't be the person I am today without the love and support from my husband and son. This valentines day I am reminded how blessed I am to be alive and have such an amazing family & friends.

My husband has spoiled me rotten this Valentines Day and for that I am very thankful.

My 5th treatment wasn't as kind to me as my previous 4. It took me about 3 days to recoup after this one. 

I believe there was more to it than just the treatment though.

I have a few tiny bald spots on my head and my hair is thinner than ever. I'm sure it won't be long until 

it is gone. NO worries :) I am sporting my wigs with pride :) I can't wait until my hair grows back 

even more beautiful than it was before. I CAN'T BELIEVE HOW FAST MY CYCLES ARE GOING!

I am 1 treatment away from being completely half way thru! 

Only 13 days until our cruise! Soon enough this mama will be able to sleep in, rest and spend some much

needed 1 on 1 with my super hubby. Sometimes we forget how to do that. It's something we are

going to work on for sure in the future. We are so lucky to have this cruise and basically

get a second honeymoon (since we didn't have the greatest weather) it will be great.

Thank you all again for your support and your love! 

I am very blessed to have you all in my life!

PEACE

LOVE

HOPE

FAMILY

Cycle 2-DONE

So here I sit on my couch 2 days after my 4th treatment feeling WONDERFUL!!!!! I think that this last treatment was the best one yet...if it is even possible for a treatment to be good. haha! In all seriousness, I feel great! I've still had no nausea or sickness. I was barely tired at all this round. Went shopping the day after treatment and had a great day! Spent some much needed time with my sister and her family tonight. Vinny enjoyed playing with them. 

ONE MONTH FROM TODAY I WILL BE CRUISING ON THE GULF OF MEXICO!!!  I can not wait to be on the ocean blue with my hubby. We are going to enjoy every second of the peace and quiet. Vinny will be enjoying a nice break from therapy for the week and spending some time with Grandma. She is Ecstatic about watching him for the week. Only two more treatments to go and then its time! 

Again I just want to thank everyone for all of the support through all of this and the prayers as well. I love you all and I couldn't do it with out each and every one of you here for me. 

THANK YOU AND GOD BLESS

peace

love

hope

family

Cya later damaged, dry, ruined hair.

It's been 8 days since my last treatment and I'm feeling GREAT! Not much different than before I started treatment. I'm so lucky to not be experiencing most of the side effects that people do when they have ABVD. Other than feeling tired the day of and a day or two after I'm doing well. No nausea, nothing else. My hair started to fall out last week very slowly then all of the sudden starting Friday it was coming out in handfuls. Well after being so depressed about it I decided to say F*ck it and have my head shaved. It saves me from having to wake up every morning and crying about the hair that is on my pillow or from crying in the shower when i wash my hair and it feels like there is more hair in my hands and in the drain than on my head. Now I'm sporting hot new wigs and little beanie hats :). I am a warrior and this cancer isn't going to keep me from doing or being anything other than awesome! I am kicking its ass and I will continue to do so for the rest of my treatment.

In just 39 days I'll be cruising to Mexico with my amazing husband and eating so much food I want to puke! haha.

I AM A WARRIOR III

Thank you everyone for your wonderful comments on my pics and for all of your support. I couldn't do it without any of you! 

peace

love

hope

family!

Treatment #3....done!

Remember when I said that 2012 was going to be a good year..well I was right! After having low WBC count last treatment, this time they were fantastic! All of my blood work was fantastic! My treatment went great and was the fastest one actually. So nice when things work out the way they are supposed to. Today day 1 after treatment I find myself a bit more tired than normal. I know its going to happen but I definitely notice a difference. I hate not feeling like myself but if this is what it takes for me to be cancer free then so be it. Hopefully tomorrow I'm back to me and things are fine. 

Only 46 more days until our cruise and I can't wait!!!! It will be a much needed trip to mark the half way mark of  treatment! I'm so glad that I have such an awesome support system. My friends and family are awesome and I don't know where I'd be without them!  It's off to dream land for this girl...hoping tomorrow is a better day. 

peace

hope

love

FAMILY